Dian Ekowati

Today, as I turn my tiny lovely fujitsu’s lifebook… I have decided my mind that I will not be bothered to answer any phone, open any emails…or even, write anything in any blogs of mine… I have tried to push my self hard to focus, focus, and focus…on what I am doing… finishing a paper for a local international-conference… that will due this saturday… However, I find my self answering phone, replying emails, and much worse, writing this lowsy post on this blog ! Geez…. what in the world I am doing… I am wasting my time…! I wonder, I really wonder…

I just realize that I am a deadline person. Although I know that I should do it right now but my energy is fade away, yet…still some are left to do other unneccessary things…… Usually, my energy is coming back and will grow bigger and stronger…near deadline…!! What kind of symptom is it? I am tired of being a deadline person… but how… !!

“sometimes, long time ago….

During my time as a student in Melbourne, I learn about self-awareness theory…and used the theory to re-arrange myself and the bad habit of mine.. I had written some arguments of why I am being such a person, and why I should change my self to become a better person! Hiks !  I got an A for my assigment, yet… my bad habit is still there…”

I have to push my self to write a paper for a conference… yet, I cannot bring my self to do it now !! Help ! I am running out of time !